15 Down but On a Break

Lost a successful 15 lbs but have been stalled for a bit now! The good news is I have a very stable maintenance right now. I just have to get back into it without the snacking and the heavy dinners. It's gonna be a challenge with Christmas coming up but I have to hope at least stay at this new status quo! Then maybe come the new year I can lose another 15! Would be lovely.

Returned to JC

Success... a bit. So the blog didn't work as well as I intended so after much deliberation and mourning of the money to be spent I went back to Jenny Craig. It is worth the money because I know it can work and i feel bad when it doesn't because i spent money on it. That was about a month ago and I lost 8lbs. And that's good but not good enough. The kids had a birthday and I binge ate cake and chocolate for 4 days. Now I have to start JC again. So that is my goal, well technically for today, but I had a chocolate bar already. Soooooo.... tomorrow. Tomorrow I start JC properly and KB on Friday. DO IT! Hoping to lose 10 lbs by end of October!

Hit a Wall

I feel up against a wall with my lack of success. I try to start new everyday but it has not been very easy for me. I gave in to a binge purchase today and bought a box of cinnamon buns of which i ate three... Not in succession but still feel bad i did it. My husband knows and is not impressed. So... What to do? I feel like i need to give up carbs to see a change but not sure how i can do this with having to feed to kids and carbs are such a staple for them. I will have to think about this. In the meantime at least my chocolate goal was mildly successful as i didnt buy any and i only ate very small amounts here and there that was already in the house. Have a big brunch coming on Sunday which will be my biggest challenge, but I have to keep trying. Its got to stick and get better eventually.

GOAL: No chocolate or chips, no carby sweets... Cake, cookies, buns, scones. 

Sick as a Dog

So sick. Sinus congestion with major headaches. Ate four girl guide cookies throughout the daywhich didn't seem so bad as per my regular. Still... Would rather not be so sick! Ugh 

Hoping Tomorrow is Day 1 - Version 2.0

Its been a rough week between cranky kids, female things, and a rotton cold now.... Bah! So had a few chocolates here and there but no more than 5 kisses a day or two, becuase i said screw it choclate will make me feel better. And it did and I didn't feel like it was a binge episode which i could of been so that was good. I also had a lot of urges to go get a chocolate bar and managed to avoid that situation. My one big down fall was a small binge fest on short bread cookies at work. Really fell apart that day, also had mcds nuggets and then pizza at dinner. Also, missed KB this week. So hoping next week is going to be so much better. Have lots of room for improvement. 

Epic Day 1 Fail

So yeah.... day 1 was not very successful. It started out ok but by eleven am things had fallen apart. Had a handful, maybe two, of m&ms (left over from sat night movie in my pocket) on way to pool. Then ate the rest because I was starving and it was convenient on the way home. I even told myself I was feeding my fatty liver and questioned eating the rest of the bag half way through and then ate it anyway! Gaaaahhh! Had three easter eggs at mums house, ate two kisses right before bed. Stress level in the house... No excuse but probably 8. The good news is that I didnt actually buy anything. Still pretty dissapointed and didnt want to post my failure but that was the point of blogging in the first case. Also went on scale and the ten-ish pounds i had sort of, kind of lost are mostly back.  So yeah... Ugly day. Do better tomorrow!

Why Can't I Get on the Wagon?

So, I had some kids, I was pregnant, I gained weight, normal stuff for carrying babies. They came, I went on mat leave and I got fat... and now I can't get unfat. It's not even pregnancy weight, it's "I'm at home snacking twenty four seven, rewarding my hard days with edible treats, buying snacks when I'm at the grocery, binge eating, chowing down on what the babies won't eat" weight. I have to change! I have to and I know it and I can't! I can't get on the weight loss wagon. I've always been up and down with my weight and the wagon was always hard to get a foot on, but once I found my footing I was on and it was good. I could use time as my excuse but I can always make the time to eat poorly and that's my biggest hurdle. So after knowing and trying to unsuccessfully stay on the wagon I am resorting myself to writing it all down, laying it on the line, maybe identify where my major flaws lie. This is going to be a log of the good, the bad, and the ugly. And hopefully if I have to write it down and acknowledge it the ugly will become less and less and finally go away.
Point 1. I have decided to write this blog to lose weight then I found a Kinder rabbit and I ate it all, just like that, after 4 Hersey kisses. I wasn't suppose to eat any chocolate after dinner, I had a glass of water and that was going to be it and then the wagon ran me over. GAAAHH! I gotta stop. I have to give up sweets and I'm going to start today... again... for the twentieth time. But hopefully I can hang onto the rope dragging me behind this wagon and eventually pull myself up.
My first goal is to give up chocolate and junk snacks for the rest of this month. That's only a couple weeks so small steps. I am not going to reward myself for giving up chocolate with eating something else bad. I'm not going to reward myself at all.
The reality is that I'm fat, mostly belly fat, it's bad, it's gross, and worst is it's unhealthy. The belly fat is the worst fat you can carry, and I found out that I have a fatty liver as well. So for me, my family, my little guys I am going to do this!

Goal 1: Give up Chocolate and Chips for the month of April